He is standing under the same tree , he gazed at me with the same questions in his eyes , I replied to his every question without exchanging a word I am still not able to understand this connection between us.
He smiled and left with teary eyes , I came inside in my new home.
It's being 6 month now ,I am married to someone whom my parents choosed against my wishes - my husband whom I am not able to love although I am trying my best to atleast accept him as my friend but he said its - " India not America".
But feelings are feelings, woman is woman either its India or America!!
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Day 8 : Blahhout going Colorful
I was a web-graphic designer, wait a second I am still a web-graphic designer but won't mind to say the most lazy one when it comes to create design for myself.
Well, today I was feeling a little like designer type and bumped to my photoshop .My creative thoughts started flowing from my mind to my hands and in next moment I was re-creating my blog I just started with blue color...why blue..because this is the color stuck in my mind from so many days.Blue will be the BRAND color of my blog also now!!
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I have done few add-on to Blahhout theme , I wanted to keep it creative yet elegant.So decided to play with the footer and header only. I have created a new logo for Blahhout or to be precisely correct the very first logo of the Blahhout. The glimpse is above for the initial draft open for feedback, suggestions and Blah Blah...
Stay tune, Stay Blahhout!!
Well, today I was feeling a little like designer type and bumped to my photoshop .My creative thoughts started flowing from my mind to my hands and in next moment I was re-creating my blog I just started with blue color...why blue..because this is the color stuck in my mind from so many days.Blue will be the BRAND color of my blog also now!!
I have done few add-on to Blahhout theme , I wanted to keep it creative yet elegant.So decided to play with the footer and header only. I have created a new logo for Blahhout or to be precisely correct the very first logo of the Blahhout. The glimpse is above for the initial draft open for feedback, suggestions and Blah Blah...
Stay tune, Stay Blahhout!!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Day 7 : Blahhout with colors
sometimes I am so much out of words and get creative with my art skills (hihihi).This become my own "ART THERAPY". Adding some more feather to my hat , I am a creative person, I love colors, arts, painting anything which is creative I enjoy that and I keep myself into that.
There are 2 persons whom I actually really follow and they inspire me like hell.I try to replicate their work by adding my own touch to the artwork .For sure they both don't have any idea that their work have inspired me so much that I follow this as my own "Art Therapy".
https://www.facebook.com/TheFilmyOwl (Angel Bedi)
https://www.facebook.com/ArtbyAarohi (Aarohi)
What is Art Therapy?
I pick a art piece or anything that inspired me .I start with the shopping of the material needed in it the next step is to start from raw to get down on pencil work then start adding colors till I am done.But this is not like 15 day project, 1 week project etc I draw or color when I am feeling down or angry or just not feeling good.By painting it lift my mood it makes me happy and it work like as a therapy and the best thing is while doing painting I start planning to quit my job to open online store where I can showcase my work of art (but then my parents recall me that baby it is your just hobby not your earning career!!)
Now days I am working on kathakali inspired by Arohi work and below are the few captures of same but work is still under progress.Will also share the work inspired by Angle Bedi
Blahhout creatively !!
There are 2 persons whom I actually really follow and they inspire me like hell.I try to replicate their work by adding my own touch to the artwork .For sure they both don't have any idea that their work have inspired me so much that I follow this as my own "Art Therapy".
https://www.facebook.com/TheFilmyOwl (Angel Bedi)
https://www.facebook.com/ArtbyAarohi (Aarohi)
What is Art Therapy?
I pick a art piece or anything that inspired me .I start with the shopping of the material needed in it the next step is to start from raw to get down on pencil work then start adding colors till I am done.But this is not like 15 day project, 1 week project etc I draw or color when I am feeling down or angry or just not feeling good.By painting it lift my mood it makes me happy and it work like as a therapy and the best thing is while doing painting I start planning to quit my job to open online store where I can showcase my work of art (but then my parents recall me that baby it is your just hobby not your earning career!!)
Now days I am working on kathakali inspired by Arohi work and below are the few captures of same but work is still under progress.Will also share the work inspired by Angle Bedi
Blahhout creatively !!
Monday, January 27, 2014
Day 6 : Rural-Urban Mirror - Part One
After being getting featured in many top B-Magazine and labeled as the top most influenced professional lady.
At the age of just 30, she is member of most biggest profit creator company board of directors.Her resume is as perfect as a fairy tale should be and decorated with the top most companies and achievements.Her score were always the perfect as she has just came out of the genius world.
The topper of her school , in which the facility was to have a just proper blackboard,got into the city's most prestigious college after garbing the scholarship, which is just alien for her whole hometown.All they were happy to see her picture in few local newspaper and the shinny prize money she got from the state politician.
The first step into the college was the new life to her gifted by the goddess sarswati - she knew from the first day when she got her first book outside a temple as a alms that only she can change her life.
After returning from work as usual, tonight with one more achievement in her professional bucket , she parked her Audi at her favorite spot. The guard of the society nod her in respect it was usually 12:30 AM her time to return from work. She never took the lift , she call herself fitness freak in a awe from all the high class people around her , but she knew her bones are not fragile after all she have the blood of the farmer in her veins. As she is in top of her life so is her flat - 10th floor in the building , the 5 BHK flat in which she live alone with no pets and no servants she is in love with her own solitude.
At the age of just 30, she is member of most biggest profit creator company board of directors.Her resume is as perfect as a fairy tale should be and decorated with the top most companies and achievements.Her score were always the perfect as she has just came out of the genius world.
The topper of her school , in which the facility was to have a just proper blackboard,got into the city's most prestigious college after garbing the scholarship, which is just alien for her whole hometown.All they were happy to see her picture in few local newspaper and the shinny prize money she got from the state politician.
The first step into the college was the new life to her gifted by the goddess sarswati - she knew from the first day when she got her first book outside a temple as a alms that only she can change her life.
After returning from work as usual, tonight with one more achievement in her professional bucket , she parked her Audi at her favorite spot. The guard of the society nod her in respect it was usually 12:30 AM her time to return from work. She never took the lift , she call herself fitness freak in a awe from all the high class people around her , but she knew her bones are not fragile after all she have the blood of the farmer in her veins. As she is in top of her life so is her flat - 10th floor in the building , the 5 BHK flat in which she live alone with no pets and no servants she is in love with her own solitude.
Entering in her home, that people call it but for her it is just a rest place, she kept the keys just next to the table walked into kitchen to have some water,she was not feeling hungry trained from the childhood to control her hunger and sleep empty stomach is still working for her despite of her refrigator is loaded with the all kinds of tempting eatables one can think of but mostly are unpacked and for sure crossed the expiry date too.
Today she was feeling the emptiness of her flat or her life she also was not sure or her hunger. she took the water bottle and few chips packet walked to the balcony from where she can see the all wild traffic and chaos of the town from the top .She moved very closed to the railing of the grills put her foot on the most bottom of the grill very carefully hold the grip through her toe and fingers.She spread her hands out , she can feel the air in her hair and all crazy traffic noise in her ears- she was feeling like queen in command one order and all the movement will come to halt, a grin come on her lips with this thought.She closed her eyes to feel and try to smile , took a deep breath of victory, a deep breath of luxury and suddenly a tear rolled down from the corner of her eyes and a total blackout.
Today she was feeling the emptiness of her flat or her life she also was not sure or her hunger. she took the water bottle and few chips packet walked to the balcony from where she can see the all wild traffic and chaos of the town from the top .She moved very closed to the railing of the grills put her foot on the most bottom of the grill very carefully hold the grip through her toe and fingers.She spread her hands out , she can feel the air in her hair and all crazy traffic noise in her ears- she was feeling like queen in command one order and all the movement will come to halt, a grin come on her lips with this thought.She closed her eyes to feel and try to smile , took a deep breath of victory, a deep breath of luxury and suddenly a tear rolled down from the corner of her eyes and a total blackout.
She never born with the silver spoon in her mouth, she has to fight for every thing in her life especially to live the life she wanted - to get the education she wanted.She always had asked this question to herself to the only temple in her village under that old peepal tree " why I have to take permission to my parents for everything? why being a girl I am always consider to be in kitchen or work as a slave? why at every possible way I have to get abused from all males and old females? why? why I AM A GIRL pinch in my ears, pierce my heart, is being girl is sin? "
She always had 2 choices in her life at every stage, she could have gone with the flow of life and would have accepted what her village other girls were doing but she knew at the night when all sleep she in the dim light of the candles when she start reading the books she get the confidence she can feel a new her she can feel a much more is needed from her and her life and then at that moment her dual life started until and unless she didnt gave her family the money she got as the topper of the state to his male-dominated family in return to the tiket to her freedom and admission of her in city college.She thought that was the end of her dual life and now she is free from the taboo, the sin from the being a girl but this was just the end of the Rural mirror of her life.
Urban mirror is waiting for her....
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Day 5 : Evade Plan from Marriage - Young Indian Style!!
Few months back I read an article somewhere, the heading was so catchy and it was so much close to the today's society that it is still in my mind.The heading was -
"In India Higher studies means running from marriage"
(sort of something like this) and it is so true.
Well India is the place or we Indians are at that confusing stage that at one side we actually want to move ahead and have competition with the New york, Paris , Germany but still we are same oldies and Goldie want our child to get married in age of 21/25, want them to have arrange marriage only and most important the career should be only Doctor, Engineer, IAS , Teacher.For them painting, cricket, football are just a hobby and become a big NO when the exams are coming.
To evade from the early marriage, at the age where their career start bubbling they get themselves engaged into higher studies.Higher studies came as the rescue plan for them help them to avoid the marriage for like 2-3 years and just let them focus on their career.Despite of the having background of good middle class families the parents failed to understand that the world is still outside the marriage it is not end of the world nor start of the world.
But yes there are many parents who are understanding and moving ahead with the time giving space to their child.Trying to actually become buddy of them.But still many girls out there are struggling to make their parents understand that marriage do can wait but career can not.To evade from this hyped marriage the best evade plan is to go for higher studies because at least parents do the respect to the education but still those girls get to listen that - "if you will have higher degrees how we will gonna get a suitable guy for you" and I am 100% sure that time those girls must be smiling at her parents with grin and thinking in heart -"who is asking you to search husband for me? I know whom I want to get married"!!
For sure dear Indian parents, please be a actual friend of your kids as you are confuse, you are somehow creating confusion in your child life too. Already we have 100 of issues to deal with - so many new mobiles keep launching which to buy ? which not?, so many new movies come every Friday need to watch them and then publish expert comments on FB/Twitter, need to decide next weekend plan and so much blahh.
So kindly just Blahhout all the old things and hangout with your child.
Let's keep it simple!!
"In India Higher studies means running from marriage"
(sort of something like this) and it is so true.
Well India is the place or we Indians are at that confusing stage that at one side we actually want to move ahead and have competition with the New york, Paris , Germany but still we are same oldies and Goldie want our child to get married in age of 21/25, want them to have arrange marriage only and most important the career should be only Doctor, Engineer, IAS , Teacher.For them painting, cricket, football are just a hobby and become a big NO when the exams are coming.
To evade from the early marriage, at the age where their career start bubbling they get themselves engaged into higher studies.Higher studies came as the rescue plan for them help them to avoid the marriage for like 2-3 years and just let them focus on their career.Despite of the having background of good middle class families the parents failed to understand that the world is still outside the marriage it is not end of the world nor start of the world.
But yes there are many parents who are understanding and moving ahead with the time giving space to their child.Trying to actually become buddy of them.But still many girls out there are struggling to make their parents understand that marriage do can wait but career can not.To evade from this hyped marriage the best evade plan is to go for higher studies because at least parents do the respect to the education but still those girls get to listen that - "if you will have higher degrees how we will gonna get a suitable guy for you" and I am 100% sure that time those girls must be smiling at her parents with grin and thinking in heart -"who is asking you to search husband for me? I know whom I want to get married"!!
For sure dear Indian parents, please be a actual friend of your kids as you are confuse, you are somehow creating confusion in your child life too. Already we have 100 of issues to deal with - so many new mobiles keep launching which to buy ? which not?, so many new movies come every Friday need to watch them and then publish expert comments on FB/Twitter, need to decide next weekend plan and so much blahh.
So kindly just Blahhout all the old things and hangout with your child.
Let's keep it simple!!
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Day 4 : Mera Bharat Mahan - Happy Republic Day !!
Happy Republic Day!!
So, first day out of the 2 days of a year when all over the Newspaper, TV, Radio, Roads, Hoardings, social media will be flooded by the national flag, patriotic messages, current leaders having pics with great leaders and all the patriotic songs.But c'mon why 26th Jan is on SUNDAY!! Public holiday on Sunday it is not at all fair :(
Anyhow, for me 26th Jan is always wake up early in morning get ready to sit in front of television tune to DD national - I don't even remember when was the last time I watched DD.While my mom in kitchen showing her best culinary skills in preparing the best breakfast for all her kids and my dad narrating us despite of already a good spokeperon in behind the visual of the 26Jan parade is narrating everything in HINDI. yes you read write in HINDI,it is mandatory for us to watch the 26th Jan in Hidnia
So, first day out of the 2 days of a year when all over the Newspaper, TV, Radio, Roads, Hoardings, social media will be flooded by the national flag, patriotic messages, current leaders having pics with great leaders and all the patriotic songs.But c'mon why 26th Jan is on SUNDAY!! Public holiday on Sunday it is not at all fair :(
Anyhow, for me 26th Jan is always wake up early in morning get ready to sit in front of television tune to DD national - I don't even remember when was the last time I watched DD.While my mom in kitchen showing her best culinary skills in preparing the best breakfast for all her kids and my dad narrating us despite of already a good spokeperon in behind the visual of the 26Jan parade is narrating everything in HINDI. yes you read write in HINDI,it is mandatory for us to watch the 26th Jan in Hidnia
Friday, January 24, 2014
Day3 : Uski DP meri DP se aachi kaisa hai??
LOL... I can't stop myself laughing out when I overheard few girls conversation last evening and I won't be embarrass to confess that sometime this is the same feeling I also have when I saw some Vogue-cover page-model types DP of any girl!! hahaha so after knowing that I am not the only crazy girl for my DP I was pretty relaxed too that this is the trait of every NORMAL girl!!!
But then I realized is this is not the kind of useless marathon we people are running in? mainting our FB profile, twitter profile, watzapp profile, Instagram profile, pintrest profile, Linkdin and don't know how many more social media . We have all our own virtual world showing the best of the best to the world real people in same virtual world.
hmmm its sometimes too good to be connected with so many people having a virtual life within the real life but problem comes when this virtual life start taking lead of our real world.When we start doing everything just because we need to upload the latest pics on FB, visiting the most new happening spot in city so that we can showoff on our FB - "laaa laa laa I was the first one to visit that place!!". Instead of enjoying the coffee in the chilling cozy winter evening with your buddies you are first clicking the pic, updating on FB/Watzapp/twitter and then doing check-in status and only after shouting to the world that what you are doing with whom your are doing and blahh blahh and blahh...hang on how much I am actually enjoying?? and only after all this you will take the actual sip of that coffee.
More shocking is when the couples are sharing their own private honeymoon pics, beaches pics ....hello there is something call as "Private Moments" too.
No wonders I have also done same sometimes and after that I felt like a psycho.Trying to do fake things , trying to showoff I am enjoying at so-and-maha-bore place, sipping coffee and eating food at most expensive place just because of the virtual world.
So, just to reduce the complexity and stress in my life the best thing I done is not configure my official emails in my smartphone after all it was not at all mandate while I was taking the job to be connected on emails by 24X7 and same I did with my personal emails and gtalk, cmon if my friends are missing me please call me before doing ping on gtalk and I was so annoyed from all useless promotional emails, I also uninstall the FB messenger, deleted my LinkedIn app and twitter too.
and can you even imagine my smartphone is still alive and still my life is awesome and infect more better.
So, can we just close our virtual world step out all virtual useless status/post/pics try to connect with real world with real people instead of just putting our self into pressure putting our life in front of strangers.
Uffff we youth I tell you!!
But then I realized is this is not the kind of useless marathon we people are running in? mainting our FB profile, twitter profile, watzapp profile, Instagram profile, pintrest profile, Linkdin and don't know how many more social media . We have all our own virtual world showing the best of the best to the world real people in same virtual world.
hmmm its sometimes too good to be connected with so many people having a virtual life within the real life but problem comes when this virtual life start taking lead of our real world.When we start doing everything just because we need to upload the latest pics on FB, visiting the most new happening spot in city so that we can showoff on our FB - "laaa laa laa I was the first one to visit that place!!". Instead of enjoying the coffee in the chilling cozy winter evening with your buddies you are first clicking the pic, updating on FB/Watzapp/twitter and then doing check-in status and only after shouting to the world that what you are doing with whom your are doing and blahh blahh and blahh...hang on how much I am actually enjoying?? and only after all this you will take the actual sip of that coffee.
More shocking is when the couples are sharing their own private honeymoon pics, beaches pics ....hello there is something call as "Private Moments" too.
No wonders I have also done same sometimes and after that I felt like a psycho.Trying to do fake things , trying to showoff I am enjoying at so-and-maha-bore place, sipping coffee and eating food at most expensive place just because of the virtual world.
So, just to reduce the complexity and stress in my life the best thing I done is not configure my official emails in my smartphone after all it was not at all mandate while I was taking the job to be connected on emails by 24X7 and same I did with my personal emails and gtalk, cmon if my friends are missing me please call me before doing ping on gtalk and I was so annoyed from all useless promotional emails, I also uninstall the FB messenger, deleted my LinkedIn app and twitter too.
and can you even imagine my smartphone is still alive and still my life is awesome and infect more better.
So, can we just close our virtual world step out all virtual useless status/post/pics try to connect with real world with real people instead of just putting our self into pressure putting our life in front of strangers.
Uffff we youth I tell you!!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Day2 : Blahhout Politic fights on Social Media!!!
Every time I log in to my FB and most of the feeds are of only the political parties claiming how good they are with some screen grab of some well developed areas, of some top leaders putting best words for them, graph of showing how much progress India had done because of them and accusing other parties for defaming their images by paid media and cherry on the cake if the FB users - the youth (educated people working in MNCs, having degrees from prestigious educational institutes) fighting for their icon on these such post.
And I am like just reading and laughing my lungs out and sometimes burst in anger so much that can't stop myself in commenting on these post.
Is social media is now new 100% NEWS Broadcasting micro site? I know the answer is NO but after seeing the war of words on social media I feel that many people think the words published on the social medias are 100% TRUE, c'mon guys if you know how to use the social media then I believe you must have common sense to understand that the words on such platform are not at all authenticate so blindly trusting them and fighting over them is all stupidness. You want to blahhout your views, opinions do it.But social media is a platform to show your presence to market yourself and the "bread-n-butter" rule of any marketing is only one "PULL DOWN YOUR COMPETITOR DOWN and SHOW YOURSELF "
Its good to see Indian political face is changing and targeting the youth now but we as a youth have to be little mature and not just blindly follow every post and tweet but grab the reputed newspaper and read the stories and articles there and then fight/argue with data points not by some-paid social media marketing posts.
And I am like just reading and laughing my lungs out and sometimes burst in anger so much that can't stop myself in commenting on these post.
Is social media is now new 100% NEWS Broadcasting micro site? I know the answer is NO but after seeing the war of words on social media I feel that many people think the words published on the social medias are 100% TRUE, c'mon guys if you know how to use the social media then I believe you must have common sense to understand that the words on such platform are not at all authenticate so blindly trusting them and fighting over them is all stupidness. You want to blahhout your views, opinions do it.But social media is a platform to show your presence to market yourself and the "bread-n-butter" rule of any marketing is only one "PULL DOWN YOUR COMPETITOR DOWN and SHOW YOURSELF "
Its good to see Indian political face is changing and targeting the youth now but we as a youth have to be little mature and not just blindly follow every post and tweet but grab the reputed newspaper and read the stories and articles there and then fight/argue with data points not by some-paid social media marketing posts.
Day 1 : What is Blahhout?
Ahhh , welcome friend!!! so welcome to my Blahhout zone!!
Now I know you must be curious to know what is this all about and who I am? Well for me its not so important to know about me, what important is what blahhout is.So, let me give me introduce to you, blahhout is a blog , a place , a zone to blah out your thoughts here about anything (of course comments will be moderate for sure, don't be naughty as main hun ek sanskari Indian gal!!!).
This is my own experiement of blahhouting my all thoughts here for a year.So, one post per day for a year.
Why?? well I also don't know, might be while these 365 days of journey I will be able to figure out this too.
So, cheers to the blogging world!!
have a Blahhout Day!!
Now I know you must be curious to know what is this all about and who I am? Well for me its not so important to know about me, what important is what blahhout is.So, let me give me introduce to you, blahhout is a blog , a place , a zone to blah out your thoughts here about anything (of course comments will be moderate for sure, don't be naughty as main hun ek sanskari Indian gal!!!).
This is my own experiement of blahhouting my all thoughts here for a year.So, one post per day for a year.
Why?? well I also don't know, might be while these 365 days of journey I will be able to figure out this too.
So, cheers to the blogging world!!
have a Blahhout Day!!
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